There is these two guys I really like. One is soo perfect everything about him is so beautiful & reminds me exactly of you: lowkey, humble, stress free about life, and just living it. The other one is not someone I would normally be attracted to but we spend a night together & I saw things that reminded me of myself. I know if you were here you would of told me to just go with the one that I believed in the most. But this time is harder than it seems. I just don’t want to make the wrong choice. I was thinking on just going with the flow, but I know you would not like that answer, so I decided as of this very moment as I am typing this note to let it go…. I know you are thinking “WTF, did I not teach you anything about letting things go when you don’t want to?” But I think I am not ready to love anyone else at the moment… I am scared to forget you. & I rather forever be alone than to forget you… I know you are thinking ” WTF? You are SOO fucking dumb” But you will not be able to ever understand the pain we all went trough when we lost your big blue eyed self. Thank you for making me fearless. I love you for ALWAYS keeping it real. You’ll be my unshared secret till the end of my days… forever. <3 <3
